I'll Be OK

"As long as I know right from wrong I'll be ok I'll sing my songs..."

My new daily routine-
wake up at 8am, scour the internet for jobs with 16 oz of coffee in hand, write, maybe write a little more, proceed to my Hershal Walker exercise plan that consists of sets of push ups (100 total), sit ups (200 total). Maybe have some oatmeal/honey nut cheerios/frosted flakes, all this while listening to music, posting bs on the face, ignoring phone calls from bill collectors, and drinking 3 pints of water. Then hit the gym where I do 4 to 5 miles of exercise either on the treadmill or elliptical, then shoot some ball for a half hour maybe play a game or two, and into the sauna for 20 minutes. leave the gym and do an extra exercise like rockin the zoo, hitting up cowles mountain, or head back to the gym for more bball shooting. comeback drink 3 or 4 more pints of water, shower, get antsy just sitting here, maybe write some more, def listen to more music, plan to stay in, get a call or text from someone heading out, debate for 5 mins if I should go out, go out, get drunk, eat at denny's (southern omelette with hash browns has 1070 calories and 80 grams of fat... wow man wow.), or stay in watch the history channel or 48hours try to go to sleep around midnight, give up get out of bed head to the tv/computer room stay up till 4, fall asleep on the couch wake up around 6 head to bed, wake up at 8am. repeat Have I mentioned I discovered my love of fishing?

Speaking of the Gym, tonight's conversation with Sofia;
" Why do you go to the gym so much?"
" Because I am getting healthy and skinny"
" So- When's that gonna happen?"

:/ hahaha


...Christ I tried to replicate the drivel of other blogs but I just couldn't. back to my own version of drivel...



Last night was what going out should be about. I met up with Nick and Brian at some bar and grill in Mira Mesa. To skip the traffic that is Mira Mesa Blvd. I decided to get off on Carroll Canyon rd. That got me a little pissed. Carroll Canyon road is the exit that my work used to be off. Bitterness, anger, regret, all set in and for a moment I thought it was gonna ruin the night. Nick asked me the other day if I was done grieving over the loss of my job. Up until last night I don't think I had. Carroll Canyon is also where Brandon works. He is a construction worker and they are expanding the off ramp. I was still thinking about the AG all the way to the bar and as I sat down. But 30 seconds in and we were all laughing. It didn't turn into a night of drinking to forget, or as a temporary band aid for me. It was a true honest good night. Laughing the whole time at Callahan's, watching the Giants lose to the Phillies- our conversation are epic and ridiculous.
" your weiner is like a petri dish"
" It felt like I was doing my mattress"
"who's that hot chic pitching for the Giants?"
"1 pm on Wednesdays peak time to speak to Brian..."
hahaha man. It a great feeling to know I have two guys like these that not only put up with my moodiness, retardeness, drunkeness, (insert whatever else I maybe missing) but make it go away, without having to really talk about anything. I actually have a couple of other friends like that but last night it was these two. The party moved on to Patricks in Poway where we conversed on Slavic history, The civil War, the downfall of the USA, how lame politics are (democrats, repubs and everyone in between), and management styles and why the corporate world sucks. Then proceeded to getting shot down by girls and sobering up at Denny's eating, having some coffee talking to our usual waiter. We realized we were the only ones inside of Denny's last night (how you come up with the name swollen members? drunk at Denny's!)Thats what an outing should be about. not getting stupid, not not knowing what you were doing, drinking till a debate about whether you should get hauled off to detox, etc... Remembering the whole night with the cool people you have the privilege to call friends and waking up regretting the trip to denny's. Only improvement really would be the whole getting shot down thing. haha.


to the waiter- " you're awesome!"
his reply? " Naw Man you guys are Awesome!"


I'll be Ok from Aesop Rock featuring Slug because with friends like these I know I will be.

this quote is what I feel about my friends, though I am both the crazy and the drunk...

"General Grant is a great general. I know him well. He stood by me when I was crazy, and I stood by him when he was drunk; and now, sir, we stand by each other always.".