Savior

I put the first part of this one as a note on FB. I'm pretty sure I was just tired. I am far from being one to think I am above and beyond anyone, I hope that's not how it came across it's just a little frustrating having to start over again when I know I should be at a different stage in my career. I'm sure I'll get over this feeling though.

I talked with my kids during lunch yesterday and to be honest all the feelings of missing them now and in the future were hitting me- Instead of taking it on a daily I'm a tard and think about the whole next year I will be up here and it sucks. Damn I hate getting all like this here...

On a lighter note I didn't get lost today heading to 24 hr fitness, but damn was the traffic terrible. God must love himself some bbqing because it wasn't raining while I was out grilling it up tonight... After the gym tomorrow I'm gonna go Christmas shopping finally so that should make it feel better. That and maybe watching some Christmas Story and some Nightmare before Christmas.


Savior, by Slug, Eyedea (RIP), and Sole. Eyedea died a couple of months ago in his sleep, he was only 28. I hadn't heard this song before tonight...


"The pressure pays the toll, it takes control
So I can be a better dad, I can be better in bed
I can be a better man, I can be better off dead
I can be a better son, boyfriend or employee
But I better fix my head before I let that shit destroy me
Yeah, you know me, that cat with no game, no gear
Been in love as many times as I've been alive in years
It ain't my fears that's riding me, nope
It's how I cope and construct, and how I act as if I don't give a fuck..."